Pocketful of Sunshine

Anyone, anywhere, just please. ... . . .

Try

Why do we fall in love so easily.

Even when its not right.

Exhaustion

Tired of all the expectations, disappointments and endless pondering late into the night. All of it kept secret. Exhaustion is taking its toll.

Where would be the place of quiet, with no other soul in sight. Where would that place be.

I still wonder.

Beautiful

I wonder if you think of me sometimes.

What makes you so beautiful, is you don't know how beautiful you are to me.
Nobody's perfect, but you are, to me. (:

Sadness Within

That dark, nasty feeling you get in your chest. The hurt that you feel in your heart, slashed against your feelings. The confusion and aching that follows after it.

Sadness. I still wonder why.

The Low - Down

Disappointment, is when your expectation is crushed, just by a few words, in a few seconds. Everything you thought never was.

It hurts more, when the person that you thought would be the only person you trust to see through the whole situation, betrays your trust, just like that. By making up their minds, without letting you go on.

Such bitter disappointment.

I will never see you as the same person, ever again.

Back to the Drawing Board

This is getting ridiculous. Assignments, assignments. At the very end, group works are might as well individual assignments.

I have learnt a VERY important lesson, since the very start of my tertiary education.

I HATE RANDOM GROUP PROJECTS. I LOATHE, DESPISE THE VERY THOUGHT OF IT.

Why?

Because no matter how much you try, if you get stuck with free riders or people who JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND, you still end up doing all the work, regardless if there are 10 or a 100 people in the group.

Ok, back to work. Just needed to rant. Kthanksbai.

Constant Love

Always there. I love you :)

Special Day?

Morning folks!

Yeaaaaahhhhhh, it's Saturday and I'm up early! Well, earlier than usual anyways. And guess what day is today??

*Yes I know it's Saturday*

Today's my birthday!! The day I was born, came into this world, yada yada yada...

I know I might come off as ungrateful/conceited/whiny but I'm gonna say it anyways, since I think I'm the only one reading this.

It's my birthday, but somehow...I don't feel any different. It's not because there's no presents or anything like that. But..it just feels so...insignificant. To be honest, I'm feeling kind of sad. I'm homesick, and no one..well..seems to particularly bother with it. *See, I told you it might come of whiny*

So yeah, I'm sad, and I just want to go home......

Dark Side

Wow, it sure is dusty in here! *cough, sneeze*

Well, just gonna pop in for a bit, life's been crazy with assignments.

Updates! Not really in a good condition, physical stress with assignments, and mental stress to add on with a certain friend.

Makes me wonder, does making the same mistake previously makes me the same person I was then? Such a simple question, and still struggling to find the answer.

Sadness, someone please take it away. Or take me away.

Newbie

Hey, guys!

Its been super long since I posted anything here! I know, I know, I promised to keep this blog updated. But that's what you get when you're as random as me.

Speaking of randomness, I'm going to do just that, right now. Random. I've just been back in DJ after 6 months of internship at my hometown, Kuching! Its been awesome, getting to go back home for half a year. And now I'm back.

It should be nice, right. Back to where I miss a lot of things.

WRONG.

Lots of things have changed. Yeah, I know, it'd be stupid to think things will still be the same. But then again, I certainly didn't prepare myself for this! Drastic, major changes. People I used to know, routines I used to do. Its's all spiralling out of control, like I'm in some kind of freak time change!

Seriously. Its making me uncomfortable, which leads me feeling awkward. Which sometimes make me feel frustrated. Then I'll be wondering what is wrong with me.

Actually, I do wonder what's wrong with me. I think a friend of mine was right. I am anti-social. I pick and choose.

Sigh. Sometimes I think of myself as, "intruder much?".

Well, sorry for the depressing post. folks. But that's what I've been feeling since I came back. Depressed, and homesick.


Bye for now, more cheery updates soon! :)

Even the sun sets in Paradise

I know it's hard to remember the people we used to be. It's even harder to picture that you're not here next to me. You say it's too late to make it, but is it too late to try?
And in our time that I wasted, all of our bridges burned down.

I've wasted my nights, you turned out the lights.

Now I'm paralyzed.

You turned your back on tomorrow because I forgot yesterday.
You gave me your love to borrow but I just gave it away.
You can't expect me to be fine, I don't expect you to care.

If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you.

 Still stuck in that time when we called it love.

But even the sun sets in paradise.

I know I've said it before,
But all of our bridges burned down.

Payphone - Maroon 5

Low low low~

Hi folks,

Been quite some time since I popped in, eh?

Well, things haven't been going so good lately. F*cked up family members who just makes my blood boil at the sight of them, funerals, and plain ol' helplessness. But I'm not gonna elaborate on that, or it'll just take pages and pages to fill you in.

That's only part of it. The sequel would be of friendship falling apart. i t was on my account, so I can't blame nobody for that, except myself. Plus, I don't think I'm doing a pretty good job of mending it. I brought it upon myself, and now I don't know what to do about it. Every attempt seems to just go down the drain.

So yeah, it's been a pretty crummy week. I don't go to sleep happy, and neither do I wake up happy.
What a start to a day.

*Sigh...*

Have a Dream in New Orleans

A big big super huge HELLO to all you folks since its been AGES since I last updated this poor ignored blog of mine. D: But no worries, I'm back! (for a little while >.<)

Just wanted to drop some updates. Currently doing my Industrial Training as required by KDU UC, at Hilton Hotels and Resorts, Kuching. I must say, what goes in the back-of-the-house and during everyday operations are extremely sugarcoated for the guests to see =/

My, my.

Frankly, I was surprised and totally unprepared for whatever I was in for. Some things (and people) appalled  me at first *well, still do, actually* . There's only one word for it.
Mindfcuk.

Excuse the language. But anyways, slowly got used to it, and the second month of being in the Front Office department is quickly coming to an end! One more month and I'd be switching departments *maybe* To put it in a nutshell, I learnt a lot (still am) about how the hotel works, guest's behavior and demands, and most importantly, the team member's different attitudes and how they roll. =/ You know how they teach you back in class how teamwork and tolerance is important for the department's success and stuff like that? Well, some people reeaaaaaaaallllyy needs to go for an intensive team-building course.

Okay, enough about that. It's gonna be a 1000 words essay if  I keep on typing on my training. -__- My boss is firm and fair enough, so that's all that matters :)

Social life is next to zero now, since I'm usually too tired or too lazy to go out on my off days, and I'd rather chill out at home. *Omg, I sound so old, am turning into an anti-social being! D:* I guess it's cuz most of my close company are back in KL.  Oh well.

On the other hand, missing the boyfriend so so damn much :( Its so sad sometimes thinking of the times spent together doing simple things like having dinner or catching a movie seems like a bliss to do, especially now that we're so far apart. :'(( But it's all in the name of a better future, so yours truly will be looking forward to the day to go back that I'll be able to hug the boyfriend. :)

And that, folks ends up today's post :) 2 months ++ of not hearing anything much, as even Facebook haven't had much updates from me . =/ Till the next post, XoXo all! :D

I love you, and missing you as you read this.
Lots of love from here :)